I feel like I’m being punished for what I did.
I want to walk away from my life
Relationships
Resign myself to a job that is just a check
And a man who will never love me and will treat me like shit
Maybe put my hermit hood back on and work two full time jobs sleeping in the off hours
Never making eye contact
All I ever want to do any more is sleep
Half the time not completely sure I’m not
Sometimes when I sleep there are people there I used to know
Who used to know me
People used to know me?
Sometimes when I sleep, I cry myself awake
And then cry some more for losing sleep
I think it’s horrible of people to ask me to be a certain way
To see me any other way would hurt them
Is it fair that I am hurting?
I don’t want to make anyone else feel the way I do